Slience

Ugly thoughts scream inside my head,

weighing downmy soul.

Pains from yesteryear back to haunt me

in this silence.

The clock ticks, hours feel like days,

my weary spirit gray.

Swollen eyes on tear stained days and

restless nights.

Again we meet,   panic strikes cowardice

has stolen me,

leaving me alone in this silence.

Patty

   Pain

Cowardice,  pain,  darkness within me.

Evil seeps through every inch of my being.

The screams inside pulls me down into this

abyss I have created.

Patty

These two poems were written about a very bad time in my life.  I am a rape survivor, and I can now say that withoufeeling like I did something wrong.  They take so much from you and out of you.  But in time we can heal , not orget but heal.

Patty

Tomorrow, tomorrow, what will be tomorrow?  What was today will be tomorrow.  Another

day full of confusion, wondering if it was the right decesion.  To hold onto someone, who holds

someone else.  That was the decision I broke and turned on myself.  I could have held on and

kept what I had, then I would only be halfway sad.  He's not to blame, for that is myself, I took

my heart off the shelf.  Forget him never, forgive him I will, forgive my heart I never will.

PK

Why does the pain come on so intense so strong? When I feel I have done nothing wrong  to

deserve the pain that comes on strong.  My heart was true and full of life, just to be blown

away at the blink of an eye.  The question's circle inside my head, just thinking about the

things he said.  To hold me close and tell me things that made my heart fly with the wind.

To know himself that he was lying, keeping me hanging as my heart was dying.  To know

inside that all were lies was something I chose not to recongize.  For I fell for him with the ease

of an Eagle in flight, searching for the right mate to fly with her day and night. For I'm hurting

now for what I chose.  What happens now only Heaven knows.  The Eagle has landed, without

her mate, on a mountain high she will sit and wait.  For when she spreads her wings again,

she'll search this time for just a friend.

PK

Midnight Dream

Once upon a midnight dream,

I dreamed of you in pleasant dream,

I dreamed I had you once again, your smile,

your touch, the smell of your skin.

We laughed and loved all through the night.

I couldn't be dreaming it felt so right. My body

tingled with every touch, my pulse was racing

wanting you so much.  I reached gently to touch your

face, your eyes, your lips I slowly traced. At last it

came your warm embrace your arms around my

aching waist....Once upon a midnight dream, I dreamed

of you in pleasant dream.

PK